just came back from nagoya. love japanese products so much. gonna sweep their slimming corner the next time i set foot on the land of the rising sun. and i found the world's best eyeliner! it costs less than 20 bucks y'all! if you're vain enough to ask me to get it for you, i will (: all girls should be vain. if you don't put in effort to show the world you love yourself, who's gonna respect you and love you like you deserve?

fell in love with soaking in the bathtub with bath salts that make me perspire. read: for weight loss purpose. i always fall asleep in the warm running water, with a sheet mask on my face, perspiring gently, not profusely. the sweating makes me feel so good. it relieves me of my fatigue and stress somehow.

fell in love with magazines like nylon, vivi, peppermint, frankie, glamour, shape, voguegirl and ellegirl. the only local print would be shape. the rest all hail from japan, korea, australia and the uk. somehow american magazines don't interest me. like harper's bazaar, vogue, elle, cosmopolitan etc. and i like magazines with tons of pictures and humourous articles which show the journalists' articulation and witty eloquence. aspiring to be like them, so they intrigue me so much.

fell in love with r&b ballads like those of ne-yo's. an old song of his is currently in repeat mode on my ipod. 'so sick'. it somehow makes me feel connected to the hidden sentimental sabrina. and taio cruz has got some mad nice songs as well.

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cause right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walking round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Crying over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cause I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

fell in love with teddy, over and over again. even fell in love with nakata hidetoshi because he resembles teddy. teddy has the sexiest voice. and i remember how my imaginary bf is named after him. love the bad-boy nonchalence he has. and he produces the nicest korean hiphop songs ever. somehow i feel, a guy who can speak good english, is very attractive.

fell in love with planning meals, scheduling my activities from day-to-day, buying groceries, grabbing cleaning equipment on the way, not being able to stand dust under my feet, doing the laundry, running errands etc. just fell in love with being a homemaker (although i am not). can't wait to be one! temporarily of course.

fell in love with imaginating my future once i settled down for a ground job. i see, regular gym sessions, early morning yoga, planned and self-prepared meals, weight loss, more hair, healthier skin, reduced water retention, sufficient water intake, more time with bambi, family, friends and bf, less shopping, cheaper phone bills, and being less materialistic (: positive eh? even if it means cutting my pay by 40%. worth every single cent.

fell in love with makeup, skincare and dietary supplements. fancl, dhc, miona new sea through light, natur vital shampoo, nouvelle hair tonic, jorubi aloe vera gel, dermedex series, japanese eyeliners and mascaras, chanel foundation, chanel eyebrow pencil etc.

fell in love with hibernating in the hotel room. reading a book, magazine. watching tv. soaking in the bathtub. drafting up a financial plan. gonna be an aussie crew from now on. and australia's a nice place to shop. guess, to save up, i have to learn to be able deal with the serenity and echoing silence of hotel rooms.

fell in love with falling in love (:

ciao!

going to barcelona later ((((((:

i haven't packed. but i know it's autumn over there right now, and their autumn is surprisingly warm and sunny. the type of weather i prefer. i like the heat. don't know how i can stand a week in tokyo this coming end of november. going to tokyo to clean the shelves of muji, 100yen shop and fancl. hoho!

just made dwenjang chige with beancurd, fish luncheon, long beans and wholewheat organic noodles. it sucked big time. the fish luncheon and noodles are so so awful. how can people eat such stuff. congratulate me. i still have 3 more servings of that noodles. and because the food was so disgusting, i dumped them, and ate 2 kiwis. now, snacking on half a cup of baked almonds. how i know it's half a cup? i bought measuring cups and spoons (pink ones!) from melbourne. for a more health-conscious lifestyle.

congratulate me again because i have urinary tract infection. there's blood in my pee. and when i pee, it hurts so bad i jerk and twitch and grab bf's arms damn hard. hmm, that sounds like having an orgasm. anyway, i went to the dr and he asked me to drink more water and stop holding in pee. because uti, once you have it, you can't stop having it. just like pringles. seriously, i'd rather have eczema than uti.

and my face is bombarded with rashes. eczema.

and bf said my hair's dropping a little too much. he could see a bald patch on my head. waipo agrees. omg. need to burn more moolah already.

and my moles are like morphing into scab-like scars, and they bleed. think i have some kinda weird disease that affects every part of me, from head to toe.

i love my bb! i can tweet, facebook, sign in to msn, bbm my sis and rena, and check my mails. and it's now shocking pink. i wanna change the casing to polka dots. retro stuff rocks big time.

just received a call from raffles design institute. they offer NO part time courses )): have to save up for 2 years (50k) before i can quit and start my schooling life. downpayment of 9k, and then 10 instalments of 4k throughout the 3 years of studying for my degree in fashion communication and journalism. and not to forget the materials needed and my expenditures (rent, food, insurance, shopping, bambi etc), have to at least save 70k? 70k within 2 years, 35k in a year. which is 3k per month know. i know i can if i want to. sigh. i need to see a psychotherapist for my ocd.

i love and hate shopping. i cringe at the sight of my credit card bill. bf has taken the monster outta my wallet already. it will remain with him at least for another 6 months. the bill is this hefty. i need 6 months to clear it. tsk tsk tsk.

anyway, if i manage to save 70k within 2 years, and then i changed my mind about studying, i can buy a condo ((: saving is never bad. but my mind's boggling me with the, "why save? just enjoy every moment now man! you never know when you're gonna die" theory. shit shit shit.

my sis, bro and cousins went to watch the cove. i heard them talk about it. and i promise i'll be a vegetarian (maybe not a very strict one, but i'll swear off meat) from the day i come back from barcelona, till the day i die. i'll slowly morph into a strict vegetarian, then vegan, if i can.

support stella mccartney! she's a vegan and her clothes are oh-so-trendy, and everything's made from organic and non-animal stuff. hooray!

the sheets are washed, gonna hang them up now. ciao!

i am in moscow, russia. should really buy a world map, paste in on my wall and label each destination i've visited and sightsee-ed with a sticker. it would be really fulfilling ((:

just visited the red square. it was pouring. and the pictures we took all damn chui. will head down again tomorrow to take more pictures which will turn out nicer since our hair would be dry and nice. and to visit lenin's tomb as well because it's only opened on weekends and thursdays. and i wanna visit the armoury museum and the tretyakov gallery. which are in 1000 places to see before you die.

the russian subway stations are unique. no station is similar nor alike. every station's layout is almost about the same, but the interior, lightings, wall carvings, ceilings and themes vary. very interesting. and the escalators are super long as the stations are fucking deep underground.

russians have perfected the art of having no expressions on their faces. no wonder russia produces so many supermodels.

i worked my ass off on the way up. so i bathed, did a facial scrub and mask and soaked in the bathtub with my bath salts from japan. i love soaking. although i know it's a total waste of water, it's good for our blood circulation and metabolic rate, which in turn boost losing weight too. scrubs too. that's why i wanna invest in some body scrub from victoria's secret when i reach houston 3 days later. wanna get more bath salts too, when i go to tokyo for holiday in nov/dec.

anyway, for your info, i just kena chased outta my realty park house 1 plus week ago. i've moved to pasir ris, my mom's place. but she's not living there. i'll be officially moved, into my rightful room on the 14th october. my stuff are all in boxes, or all over the place. this is causing me much stress. i am very anal about my belongings. so if i snap at you, please understand. and i cook my own meals, wash my own clothes, buy my own groceries, and do housework like using my magiclean to sweep and mop, dust and wipe surfaces, wash my own utensils and cutlery, and so much more. magiclean is my best friend now. i enjoy my newfound freedom and independence. at least i know the food i eat now are all healthy, cooked with olive oil and unprocessed/unrefined sugar and salt, and are all wholemeal. but i still overeat.

i wanna be skinny. not just slim.

i'll be going to a kelong for holiday after my 12 days in moscow and houston. gonna eat super fresh seafood all day all night. the only down side? bathe in cold water )): and after that 3 days of sinful cholesterol-filled meals, i'm gonna turn vegetarian.

no meat, no fish, no seafood, no eggs. but i'll still have my yoghurt, milk and cheese. actually, if you read skinny bitch, our human anatomy and physiology is made for eating fruits and vegetables only. fruits and veg will suffice, i'm certain.

call me miss ethical, please.